Trains rush by.
I stand still.
The icy wind biting at my face.
Trains come and go.
But I don’t move.
I watch.
Notice.
Listen.
Detaching.
More trains.
I take a deep, long breath.
Inhale.
Exhale.
Trains stop. Doors open.
Decisions to make.
Get in.
Step back.
I close my eyes.
I grasp the memories.
I place one foot on the threshold. I’m sucked in.
Pain.
Fear.
Shame.
I wake up just in time.
Pull my foot back and turn around.
I’m not holding on.
Not today.
Not in this moment.
Doors close.
I notice the wintery air on my cheeks and I smile.
I smile because I know
that in every moment
at any point
in my life
I can make the decision to engage, to hold on, to replay, to walk the familiar patterns
or
I can simply observe
with curiosity
and act from a place of awareness,
starting anew over and over again.
What are you going to choose today?
P.S. Are you ready to make peace with food, your body and yourself? Like truly, really, no doubts about your self-worth and wholeness?
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It’s a simple decision, isn’t it?
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